haveheardear

Welcome to the parade of the new black, scene. To bad all you myspace contest-entering, multi-colored haired hardcore kids, you are scene and I, personally would like all of you to get over it and accept your stereotype. Granted, you may have exceptions, like listening to dashboard confessional but for the most part that's what you are. It's ok, I'm not saying it's a bad thing, just accept it, be who you are and don't care.

The other thing that confuses me about scene kids is there moral values. They either are like crazy party-ers and smoke and drink and do pot or they are like sxe. so fickle....now some of you may get on my back for writing all this crap. but i dont really care. its what i see with my eyes and u may see something different you are entitled to your opnion but this is mine. to be scene is to be seen.

shit is what i feel like.....yea i said it......i dont want to be here im sick of fucking up and i dont want to keep doing thing....but i dont want to give up either....its the shittiest place to in......i dont fucking know anymore...

I am offically quitting the "several times a day..." crap....I basically decided that I was a tool and so I'm not doing that anymore....plus i used to just livejournal as my vent space for being depressed but thats gay and I'm not depressed anymore....GUESS WHY????!!!!! well its basically for 3 HUGE blessings God has given to me....

BLESSING #1) The band is really starting to do something. We played for like 12 people and went insane and so Christian the owner of drifters said that he wants to book us for bigger shows.....so I am completely stoked about that....

BLESSING #2) I made a new friend.....mikey for the band of flying and falling. hes a real sweet kid but I hurt his knee really bad....accidently....but we still had a good time....

BLESSING #3) last and MOST CERTAINLY not least....is the fact that I am NOT single anymore. That's right ladies you can't touch this anymore because of my beautiful girlfriend, brittany. She is so much fun and so beautiful and I dont deserve anything like her....

so yea I'm pretty dang happy GET OVER IT!

several times a day...screw it......i dont really care im so happy right now....im hyper and home alone...and sick of feeling depressed so ill jsut listen to a new band and be happy....why be sad....there is no reason to be...i am just a fool....life is good....go hug someone....<3333333333333333

a kid who is effin happy!
alex

Several times a day I think about how I post so much stuff on here and it's all when I'm feeling sad....I figure people can learn from the bad they can't learn things from the good...I would use this as a tool to show people what is wrong in there lives when I am just a horrible person and shouldn't even be talking...really...the only freakin hope i have in this world is Jesus Christ....the only place i can vent and be totally satisfied...i don't know what to say so comfort...I don't know what to say anymore....and if you reading this and you don't know me you'd probley think I'm just a kid who needs some prozac...but I don't....I need more of Jesus and I never had enough of Him....kids if you you get anything from me...don't get how to live your life....get that Jesus is the only way to life...

a person who is sick of bullcrap....and needs to get real
alex

Several times a day I think about how feelings are so wasted...our emotions are so strong and tricky...we can fall for someone we will never have ...like a celebrity...and have our lives revolve around it...but they don't care at all about us....it can be that way with anyone....maybe they like you back like...say a myspace friend...but if they live in california or wyoming or some other random state....then u'll never meet them and probley never fall in love....are these emotions wasted?.....do we just throw away our hearts to different things hoping something will come of it when it most likely won't?......yes we do it everyday........what have we become....is this just a emo generation...

what has love become?
its not like we used to hear in those old song
and its not like Yours...
-aaron marsh

someone who is just way to mixed up to know how to function anymore...

-alex

Several times a day I will think about how i really have no the slightest clue on how to explain things...i got an offer today that I will not share....but it was tempting....but i said no.....im glad i did....and i tryed to tell a girl, that i really care about, about my temptation and then I got yelled at because i was tempted....it sounded very hypocritcal I realize....but i was tempted....i care about this girl I told about the temptation a lot....she means a lot to me...maybe i didnt say no because of her but i said no because of people like her who have been used....and how much it hurts.....she taught me......she showed me.....how to be strong....and i said no because of you....

a teenager who wishes he didn't love so much but there is no way i can not...
alex

Several times a day I think about how I have no idea what to say to people anymore without saying things that compromise my faith or saying stupid fake promises.....I dont know how to comfort anymore because I thought comfort was to come from myself....and that is retarted all I can say is I'm praying for you

a kid who is back where he started from,
alex

several times a day I think about how I am not in a realationship...sometimes this bothers me....sometimes it doesnt...to me it really makes no sense...i am not against anyone who has relationships and i am not saying you are bad...i am saying i am not in agreement with it...i dont see the point of romantically loving someone i will not romantically love forever...and i dont want to screw with someones heart when i know it will end...that is my feeling i have no life...

a man who is way to lonley for his own good,
-alex

several times a day I think about this band....I think about how amazing they are and how they bring lyrics that are not only Christian they are intospective and amazing....anyway...ive been sitting on myspace for about the past hour or 2 and figured I should get a live journal...i will probley post things about my band and such...or if im mad ill get it off my chest...hey thanks for reading wutever crap i have to say I dont know why would want to read it but to each his own i suppose

love,
a person who needs more grace than ever imaginable,
alex